This is the longest time I’ve spent on the computer, except for playing the Sims 2, in weeks. I’ve been away. Recently I’ve been using the PS3 or PSP to access the internet whne I’m at home. All of it has been brief. Compared to my like 30 hours a week intermet usage, I’m down to like maybe 15, at most. Mostly just accessing Google Reader at work. I haven’t had anything to say, so I haven’t posted many blogs. I stopped posting my daily pics because I’m surrounded by unattractiveness, and I don’t feel like being photographed, I hate how I’ve been looking a lot lately.

This weekend went by too fast, Saturday was the fastest day ever, and I woke up so early. I truly hate that. I want to quit. I know I am known for leaving jobs I don’t like… but why not? I just hate hating work or school, or anything I have to do. Why can’t things I need to do be things I want to do and enjoy to do? I don’t know. The random thing is, I’ll be getting GTA4 Tuesday, but I’m usually so tired after work, I probably won’t really play it until the weekend. I hate coming home and only having a few hours to myself… geesh, I hate life.

[EDIT]I played the game out a few weekends after I got it, but I was stopped in my tracks. I plan to pick back up on it in August.

[EDIT]It’s the end of August and I have indeed picked bakc up on GTAIV! I love this game, but I hate the way ti looks on this throwback telvision. Need. HDTV. Now.

Have you ever played a game and you just cannot figure out WTF is going on? I mean, just like he said on Superbad, “I don’t even know why I play this…” It’s like impossible sometimes, truly. I was playing Def Jam: Icon today on my new PS3, I breezed through it on Easy, even though I still hate the whole fight mechanic. Then I restarted on Medium, and it was a MAJOR difference, like WTF. It seems like on Medium, my character is slower and all the AI characters are faster. Even on easy I couldn’t figure out how they do a lot of the things they do. They can flip and roll away from me, jump off the wall… I’m sitting here cussing the TV out, like “WTF! This is some bull… I can’t do that shit.” It makes me mad, because I was so used to Fight for NY and the other one, but this one is different. I do like the story and the fact your character is apart of a label, producing and managing artists… that’s hot.

I wish game publishers get it in their minds to have that same story dynamic, with a simulated-life situation. I’d love to be able to completely customize a character and environment while also following some sort of storyline, with results based on what decisions you make. If this game took away half the fighting and added some more customization, it would be my ideal game. Better yet, Grand Theft Auto meets the Sims would be my ideal game, where I can create my own character, preferable a damn female, then play through the missions, and also be able to buy houses and actually interact with different objects in the game.

Why are all the lead characters in games men? I’m a female and let me tell you, a lot of the stuff Versetti was doing in GTA, a female could do better. Just saying. Speaking of, I cannot wait for GTAIV, hell yea! That is the Yin to my Yang… LMAO! I think I bought my PS3 solely for that game, oh… and Rockband, which I have to wait for, cause the bundle is like $170. Anywho, sleepy time. Night.

I’ve been lazy lately, haven’t felt like writing, or rather, have had nothing to say. If my thoughts could automatically convert to words, then I’d be in the game. Since they cannot, well… you know. Anyway, I’m jobless right now because of some bullshit, and I’m pissed about it, but not so much. I’m mad about the situation, but I don’t feel angry, so I haven’t a clue what I feel. Anyways, a lot is going on in my world, but once again, not so much. Tomorrow, update, promise!

Guess what. I won tickets tot he Warped Tour Kick-off Party! I am so excited, I never win anything, and when I do, it’s usually extremely lame. Me and a guest will get in free, get VIP passes, have a VIP table and complimentary dinner. I am most excited to see Katy Perry, because she’s the one act I actually listen to somewhat regularly at this time. I do plan to look into these other acts too; 30H!3, The Aggrolites, Beat Union, and Broadway calls. I heard 3OH!3 was the shit. Anyway, I’m happy. (Well, at least for the time being.)

[EDIT]I don;t know where the blog is about the actual party, or if there ever was one. I’ll say this. We had a pretty decent time, overall. Broadways Calls opened the show with their two-man stage act. The music wasn’t so bad, but the performance wasn’t all that amazing. I think because it was just two dudes standing at microphones, and nothing else. Beat Union came next (I think, it’s been a while, I could be wrong), and while they were pretty entertaining to watch, their music ran together like one extremely-long song. Then 3OH!3 graced the stage with their presence and they were fire. This was the first time I had ever seen them live and it was astonishing. They put on the funniest, entertaining, high-energy, show and they’re amazing to watch. Afterward Katy perry came on with her retro-dive outfit on. She was amazing, because I loved all the songs she performed, though her vocals aren’t as strong live as they are on the records. She did good though and she was a joy to watch. Somehow The Aggrolites were the main event and they closed the show with their reggae-rock or ska, as I’ve been told it’s called. I am personally not a fan, and the fact that everyone in that room with few exceptions was there for them,perplexed me. The songs were decent, but I’ll not judge, because they’re just not my style.

LaShaunda had some sort of alcohoic concoction that was good and quite strong. We both ordered some chicken-wings which we devoured, but in the cleanest way possible. We were already fat and black, we didn’t want to overly stand-out. The night was good we wnjoyed ourselves.

I wrote these lyrics to the track for Brooklyn Basement by Tequila Mockingbird. I just love the song so much. When I was walking down the street (in the hood, FYI) I thought about these lyrics. their pretty random/ spur of the moment.

People get stuck in this hood mentality
Cause that’s the only life that they know
Inner cities live with too much brutality
That’s no place to call home… call home.

I walk these streets alone
Everyday is a challenge… Just to get from point A to point B
If it were up to me…I’d go astray and run far away
Someday, I will get to leave this street life
I’ll get to leave this street life

Do you see… see… me?

People get lost in this hood mentality
Lives are lost to knives and guns, so cold
There are so many unfortunate fatalities
We need to grow… to grow.

They walk these streets no more
Until the day people learn to make a difference
I guess we’ll grow accustomed to these black body bags
If it were up to me, I’d stay away until I turn gray

Someday there will be no more street life… be no more street life.